scandal – How To Be Myself

Humidity- a Short Poem

November 10, 2017 Leave a Comment

She grasped my hand for

The first time. Tentatively,

Unsure if she feared my pulling away,

Or that I would stay.

In broad daylight, the scandal felt

More dangerous, heavier, truer

Than it had in my head.

Fears, love, pride all raced.

I think she felt it too- her voice starting

Awkward excuses that she knew

Didn’t ring quite true.

Just as quickly as we had been more,

We were once again two

Friends walking down the street.

**I’m not sure if this picture properly portrays the sticky, humid heat that I’m going for here. What do you think?

Jillian

Filed Under: Poetry Tagged With: bisexual, boyfriend, first love, girlfriend, heterosexual, lesbian, lgbt, love, lust, poem, poetry, romance, scandal, summer

Five Guilty Pleasures That Cheer Me Up

March 7, 2015 9 Comments

Sometimes life is exhausting, and this has just been one of those weeks. It’s time to put some effort into becoming myself again; instead of a crazy, stressed out version of myself. Here’s what I want to do this weekend:

1. I adore this manicure by polishpedia.com. Probably because I’m such a girly girl and love pink and bears. I’m not going to apologize. I will say, I’ve done it before, and pink is actually not a great color. If you’re not a super genius artist, the bear will end up looking like a pig. Also, I didn’t actually watch her video, so maybe that’s part of the problem. But I think I’m going to do it with white and gray.

2. A good work out on my rower while I watch Scandal. I still haven’t seen it!! No one can ruin it for me! Please?! This will give me about 50 minutes of cardio, which should definitely give me happy vibes.

3. A long walk in the park with the Shibas.

4. Undoubtedly, an afternoon nap. I just can’t even tell you how much I want this.

5. This is probably not a guilty pleasure, but I’m going to eat a salad and a green smoothie. I need veggies and vitamins, and I know they will perk me up.

Any other awesome ideas? Tomorrow I get to hang out with my darling M ❤ , and girl time is the ultimate pick me up!

Jillian

Filed Under: Beauty, Health and Fitness Tagged With: beauty, friendship, manicure, nap, scandal, shiba inu, stress, work out

Liebster #3 and Friday Love

March 6, 2015 11 Comments

Oh my gosh, guys. If people don’t quit telling me they think I’m awesome, I’m just going to keep writing these rambling posts. Consider yourself warned!

When she nominated me for a Liebster award, kzzinsky wrote:

How To Be Myself – Jillian is awesome and I feel somewhat of a kindred spirit

I’m not going to do another post, since I’ve already done two (one and two). However, I do want to say thank you, and mention that you should all check out kzzinsky’s blog. Her tagline is “please allow me to entertain you with my frequent poor decision making”. Cracks me up. Every. Time. I wish I could steal it.

And now… my thought processes of late, expressed in links and short stories. Or, as a less dorky person might say, “Friday Faves!” (some of these are affiliates links- I get a small percentage of the sale if you buy it. I bought everything myself!)

After our company dinner party on Tuesday, my coworker told me the next day that two guys followed me to my car, then walked off when they saw her staring them down. Ummmm… WHAT??? So, I bought pink pepper spray. Hopefully it arrives before any more creepy stalkers show up.

Mag mentioned that Baggu makes her favorite shopping bags. I now want all of the bags, and I want to buy everyone I know all of the bags. It’s possible I have a problem. I haven’t decided yet, we’re just leaving the possibility of said problem open to interpretation.

I keep buying stuff at Modcloth and returning half of it. If you take a credit instead of money back on your card, you get free shipping and $5 extra. Now I have almost $100 in Modcloth credit. I’ve had worse problems (see above weird bag obsession), but I didn’t really see anything I wanted. This shirt is super cute, but I can’t handle any sort of purple. Why is everything cute purple?! I really like this blue shirt, but I don’t think I have anything to wear it with except black. Black would look weird, right?

I’ve been really stressed out lately. Textsfromlastnight.com (probably nsfw) makes me laugh every time. Immature? Maybe. I don’t care 🙂 I’m really still laughing to myself at my laptop.

How To Get Away With Murder and Scandal. I just finished the season finale of How To Get Away With Murder last night. Obviously I won’t ruin it for anyone, but I feel like I need to watch it again (but with a drink in my hand this time). I can’t wait to watch Scandal tonight!

What are your Friday plans?

Jillian

Filed Under: Blogging Tagged With: baggu, bags, blogging, Fashion, how to get away with murder, liebster, modcloth, pepper spray, scandal

My Style Icons

February 9, 2015 8 Comments

black and white image found here/ color from my wall

I love to look at fashion photos. Audrey Hepburn is one of my top favorites. She had perfect, classic style and she also had a big heart. She inspires me as a person and as a fashion icon. Here are a few collages of my top favorites for inspiration! Who else should I add to the list?

There are so many others that I adore, but these were the top choices on my mind. I am really into Olivia’s cape. The Limited has a Scandal collection and what’s left is on sale right now. Of course the cape is gone. There was no way I could buy it before, it was over $200 🙂 I can’t get the idea of a cape out of my mind though. Has anyone seen any great ones with no wool that are affordable?