resolution – How To Be Myself

This is my “I know how ridiculous I am, I just don’t know what to do about it- so sue me” face.

I have no motivation to lose weight. Last week I pre-empted Weigh In Wednesday for the Five Photos, Five Stories Challenge. I wasn’t exactly sad, as I had no real update.

What I do have, is buckets of body shaming that I pour upon myself.

Here is the only step I can truly say I have taken and kept up on the last few weeks- walking more. I have a fitbit, and I have been getting more motivated to step it up 🙂 Anyone else who has a fitbit should let me know so we can compete!

Riley got out of the house the other day and I had to run after her. I absolutely could not hack it. I am so out of shape. I never got the personal trainer that I swore I needed, but I did research it last night.

The community center that is half a mile from my house offers six sessions for $210! I am definitely calling today on my lunch break, and I will post an update once I do- since I clearly can’t get myself together!

I know that is the first step and I’m so mad at myself for not taking it. Today is the day that I will stop apologizing and start doing.

Jillian

How I Plan to Lose 50 Pounds in Seven Months

December 31, 2014 18 Comments

Me in 2008 versus 2014

subtitle: why I need to lose 50 pounds

It is really hard to post these pictures on the internet, but it’s important to illustrate why I want to lose weight so badly. My weight creeped up slowly as I started to wait tables less, then ballooned when I stopped working out and paying less attention to what I ate. I have tried so many diets before, but the only thing that ever truly worked was working with a personal trainer and tracking every calorie I ate. I have attempted to find ways to make it easier, but it just isn’t happening. I need to go back to what worked.

It feels really cheesy to start January 1st, but it’s tomorrow and I have the day off. I can’t wait one more day! I need to start now and get it over with. For me, accountability is key, so I will record everything. Here is the link to my sparkpeople account– anyone that is interested can view what I eat and what exercise I do! Even better, you can join too and we can help keep each other accountable. My basic plan is to stay within 1200-1500 calories per day (1500 on harder work out days or days that are just tough), and to start with four work outs a week. I got a deal on personal training sessions at the Diva Den, so I have three of those to get me started. I want to use those to jump start some motivation, and am hoping to incorporate some HIIT work outs.

I preordered “HIIT It“, a new book by the Fitnessista, and it finally shipped today. Gina lost about the same amount of weight that I want to, and has kept it off for 10 years. I’ve tried a few things from her blog, so I’m super excited for her book to arrive. After I read it, my plan could change.

I plan to slowly start running again, and I have a rowing machine at home for low impact cardio. Does anyone have any ideas for me? I need HELP!!
Jillian