Theory of Beauty 

 “I have this theory, that if we’re told we’re bad; then that’s the only idea we’ll ever have. Maybe if we are surrounded in beauty, one day we will become what we see.” Jewel “I’m Sensitive”

Throughout high school, college, and a few years after, I was obsessed with Jewel. I still kind of am, but I often forget she exists. Then I remember, and I go on Jewel listening binges. 

I love the lyrics to most of her songs, but “I’m Sensitive” has always stood out to me. Maybe because I am much more sensitive and easily wounded than I try to let on, but I also just love this idea of surrounding yourself with beauty. Let’s take that a step further- I want to help create that beauty for other people. 

How can I do that? Well… I could probably start with my attitude. I’m still working on that whole pessimism thing. And, let’s be honest, I should work on not being a bitch half the time! 

I think that seeing beauty in life is often just taking the time to slow down and appreciate. I feel life is beautiful when I spend time with those I love, go on a long walk, or go try something new. 

Does anyone have any suggestions? 

Jillian

My First Interview- by Sami!

interview picWhen Sami from Flowers and Wanderlust asked me if I would be interested in being interviewed for her blog’s interview series, I was shocked and honored to be asked. I was also a little nervous about what she would be asking me… and let me tell you, she didn’t hold back!

If you are interested in seeing what kind of questions Sami likes to ask, and learning more about me, you should check out her interview with me here!

An excerpt:

What is your idea of a perfect day?
Do I have to stick to a certain rating for this? I love to sleep in, so I would start with that. I would round out what was left of the morning with sex, walking the dogs, and brunch. The afternoon would involve an outdoor yoga class or hike, happy hour with friends, then maybe a relaxed night out. Most of the time I’m just craving down time. It’s funny how answering questions like this makes me realize that my dreams are not far-fetched. I can make these things happen, and should.

Nope, there is no ratings on my interviews. I like the blunt honesty. You pretty much pinned the most perfect day and I would love for a Saturday to go just like that. Sometimes it’s so easily attained, we just lose sight of such because of how busy we get. We forget to take breaks for ourselves and realize our “dreams” are right there in front of us.

Do any of you do interviews for your blog? What do you think? Was I too crazy with my answers? 😉

Jillian

Simplify Sunday- Success

Gorgeous Seattle Day

The Simplify Sunday series is going to be about minimalism in every area of life. Today it is about simplifying my thinking and how I define success. It’s funny how you don’t realize the ideas that are running around in your brain until you truly think about it.

Recently, a friend and I were discussing my blog entry on My Stitchfix Stash. She mentioned how crazy it is that we have reached a point in life where I can buy $98 pants and she can buy $50 shirts (something that had happened earlier this year that we marveled over); and that we have come a long way.

My first reaction to this was guilt. It was hard for me to even post the prices of that stuff. I feel like I shouldn’t be spending the money, I should be buying something less expensive. It is great to be able to buy things that I like and be able to pay for them, but that doesn’t feel like success to me. You know what success does feel like to me? Freedom. Is this tied to money? Sure, in many ways- but not in all of them.

I now have the freedom to take a weekend off and visit Seattle. I took the picture above on a run around Lake Union, and looking at that gorgeous view feels so relaxing, even now.

Jillian and KumaIt’s the feeling of not having to go to the second job I had for so many years after work. Instead, I can take my dog to the park and know that I can pay my bills. I can run and play with him and feel free.

 

 

 

 

Jillian and Baby AI am a worrier. This isn’t my baby, but I have worried that if I had a baby I wouldn’t be able to provide for them. I am just now getting to the point where I can simply be. I don’t need to worry as much, I have been able to save some for retirement, and I’m sure I could get another job if I lost mine. I could have that baby that I’ve been wanting, and be able to support them just fine. I still obsess about retirement, but I know that I’m doing what I can and I need to let it go.

This is what success feels like to me. It’s a little bit of guilt, over becoming middle class after a lifetime of struggling. Why me and not someone else? Primarily, though, it is freeing. I can go to the store and buy organic produce and not worry about paying the electric bill. I can save for the future, which takes away some of my anxiety. It turns out, in my mind success is just the feeling of freedom. That’s what I was looking for all this time. I thought it was more money and a better career, but it was all mental. I need to work on simplifying my thinking and remembering what really makes me happy.

What does success look like to you?

Jillian