Weigh In Wednesday- Starting Over

ughย This is my “I know how ridiculous I am, I just don’t know what to do about it- so sue me” face.

I have no motivation to lose weight. Last week I pre-empted Weigh In Wednesday for the Five Photos, Five Stories Challenge. I wasn’t exactly sad, as I had no real update.

What I do have, is buckets of body shaming that I pour upon myself.

Here is the only step I can truly say I have taken and kept up on the last few weeks- walking more. I have a fitbit, and I have been getting more motivated to step it up ๐Ÿ™‚ Anyone else who has a fitbit should let me know so we can compete!

Riley got out of the house the other day and I had to run after her. I absolutely could not hack it. I am so out of shape. I never got the personal trainer that I swore I needed, but I did research it last night.

The community center that is half a mile from my house offers six sessions for $210! I am definitely calling today on my lunch break, and I will post an update once I do- since I clearly can’t get myself together!

I know that is the first step and I’m so mad at myself for not taking it. Today is the day that I will stop apologizing and start doing.

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Getting Back on Track

lemon meringue pieI have good news and bad news. The good news is, I made the lemon meringue pie version of the drink recipe that I posted last week. It was so delicious. You should make one immediately.

The bad news is, I have totally flopped on my diet. I have been eating good food, but I have been adding in too much junk food. I had a fried food binge on Friday, and just too many little snacks over the weekend. Yesterday I pretty much ate just candy until 1:00pm. I have a bunch of soup, and I’ve started eating that to get in more veggies.

Maybe it’s time to do one of the cleanses that I put on my goals? Anyone want to do a cleanse?

I weighed in at a gain of .4, which makes the running total a loss of 2.8. I feel gross, and I don’t want to fail. My personal training session got cancelled yesterday, and I actually rowed at home for 50 minutes instead of using it as an excuse to do nothing. I am counting that as a big victory, because it’s the closest thing to victory I’ve had this week.

Riley pieI’m super tired because ever since Riley the cutie pie got spayed, she has been nothing but trouble. She has been getting into everything (stealing my laptop and trying to blog!), whining all night, and in general trying to rip her stitches open. I think that once I can let her play hard again she will be fine, but she is just frustrated that I won’t let her get her energy out.

I don’t understand how all of the parents out there function without sleep. I have lost all desire to do anything that I don’t absolutely have to do. What is your secret?? Am I doomed to not have a baby because I can barely function with a puppy? Help!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday #2

Happy Herbivore Stuffed Bell PeppersThis week was my first time using the Happy Herbivore meal plan (all vegan, oil free, whole foods based) exactly as intended. The idea is that she provides a meal plan (for every meal for a week, including snacks) that gives you around 1,200 calories a day. You also get a shopping list, recipes, and prep plan. The prep is meant to take about two hours and sets you up for the WHOLE WEEK. It took me four hours and thirteen minutes, including cleaning the kitchen. I think I will get faster with practice. It’s a little crazy cooking several meals at once time, and I wasn’t really ready for this level of multitasking. Three to four dishes at once was the most I could pull off. The prep plan was so cool- she tells you what grains to start (like rice and pasta) and what to do with each veggie. Once you start cooking you have everything ready for every dish! The meal pictured is the Stuffed Bell Pepper.

The one I did this week had me making all meals except for a few quick breakfasts that I put together on the go. I was very skeptical of this idea, worrying that the food would go bad. I’ve previously just made the meals every day. However, a huge stumbling block for me is eating whatever I can find that is ready to go when I’m hungry. This results in eating french fries at work, chip type snacks or cookies at home, anything I can find and it is always unhealthy. Having healthy food ready to go is incredible!

My weigh in has me at a gain of one pound. So, that brings me to 3.2 pounds lost in two weeks. I wish I had actually lost this week, but I actually feel really good about using the meal plans. I can’t blame them, since I have been eating extra snacks and it’s also every woman’s favorite time of the month.

I’m worried that I will lose stamina on spending a huge block of time on the weekends cooking everything, but it was so beneficial this week and I’m hoping I’ll be able to remember that when I’m feeling lazy. It saves so much time during my crazy work week, and definitely helped me avoid junk food. Now I just need to stay stronger!

Next week I have my first personal training session at the Diva Den (I got a great deal on a three session package on Black Friday), and I am excited to see how it goes. I already had the consultation and I loved my trainer. We had a great talk about how I do have a big weight loss goal, but my end game is to be thin, toned, and strong. My focus needs to be to stop eating anything that isn’t on the plan, but it is almost my birthday and I think that the rest of this week will bring challenges on that front.

I have been asked if I will post before and after pictures. I’m considering the yellow dress picture in this post my before picture, and I will post some photos along the way as the loss becomes noticeable.

Here is my journal link if anyone wants to check it!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday #1

calories for the weekI decided it would be best to just do a weekly update on my diet, aka lifestyle change, so that no one gets overwhelmed (including me!). I am trying to weigh myself just once a week, but I have not been able to resist a few check ins. These are done while wearing tons of clothes, so they’re not very accurate; but they let me know that at least I’m not gaining. This is good for calming down my weight freak outs and motivating me to not binge eat. Today was my “official” weigh in. I lost 4.2 pounds this week! I am so excited, because it really motivates me to keep going when I see that first week big loss.

This first week has not been the start with a bang that I usually go for (discipline wise), but I actually think that is probably a good thing. I typically start a new diet with some sort of fast, based on the premise that after that I would be grateful for any food (even healthy food). I greatly suspect that it is extremes like this that get me in trouble in the first place. I’m not saying that I won’t throw in a juice fast, master cleanse, et cetera- just that it doesn’t feel right at the moment. Maybe in February?

skinnier JillianThis week has been about controlling my portions and not snacking. I haven’t been perfect. I have only done two work outs, when my goal for a week is four. I have gone over my calories three times, but still have been under what I would normally eat each day. I also haven’t started my Happy Herbivore plan yet. That will be my big goal for next week. Her plans give you 1,200 calories a day without having to count, which is so fantastic I don’t even have words. I don’t know why I sabotaged myself by not doing it this week. I’m using another old picture for motivation, the one that I posted on the left. Or maybe I’m just wishing I had a drink in my hand?

Knowing that I have you all watching my back is a big help! Thank you so much ๐Ÿ™‚ I have bl3ss3dfitn3ss helping me out- does anyone else want to join us? What are your goals? I am very serious about losing weight and getting back in shape to run. I want this Spring to be a great one full of gorgeous runs, and I would love to be able to go off my high cholesterol medication. You can still follow my eating and exercise on my Sparkpage, if you’re curious to see what’s really going on over here. You don’t have to sign up for anything, you just follow the link and click on “shared food & fitness trackers”. It’s about halfway down the right hand side. I’m hoping this week will be less embarrassing than last week.

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

Jillian

How I Plan to Lose 50 Pounds in Seven Months

Jill in MexicoMary's WeddingMe in 2008 versus 2014

subtitle: why I need to lose 50 pounds

 

It is really hard to post these pictures on the internet, but it’s important to illustrate why I want to lose weight so badly. My weight creeped up slowly as I started to wait tables less, then ballooned when I stopped working out and paying less attention to what I ate. I have tried so many diets before, but the only thing that ever truly worked was working with a personal trainer and tracking every calorie I ate. I have attempted to find ways to make it easier, but it just isn’t happening. I need to go back to what worked.

It feels really cheesy to start January 1st, but it’s tomorrow and I have the day off. I can’t wait one more day! I need to start now and get it over with. For me, accountability is key, so I will record everything. Here is the link to my sparkpeople account– anyone that is interested can view what I eat and what exercise I do! Even better, you can join too and we can help keep each other accountable. My basic plan is to stay within 1200-1500 calories per day (1500 on harder work out days or days that are just tough), and to start with four work outs a week. I got a deal on personal training sessions at the Diva Den, so I have three of those to get me started. I want to use those to jump start some motivation, and am hoping to incorporate some HIIT work outs.

I preordered “HIIT It“, a new book by the Fitnessista, and it finally shipped today. Gina lost about the same amount of weight that I want to, and has kept it off for 10 years. I’ve tried a few things from her blog, so I’m super excited for her book to arrive. After I read it, my plan could change.

I plan to slowly start running again, and I have a rowing machine at home for low impact cardio. Does anyone have any ideas for me? I need HELP!!
Jillian