Bento Box Lunches 

Open bento box with spoonSurprising no one, I am still trying to lose weight. Hey, why not make that my comeback post?!

I’m tired of being hard on myself. It’s a struggle for me, trying to be positive. I easily slide into negative thoughts about my weight, self worth, what others think of me. Soooooo pointless.

Last month I went to Cabo (actually, I will post pictures soon, it was so pretty!) and I realized that I freaking love cheese plates and snacks. You know what snacks are? Reasonable portions for actual meals! I don’t know if I am some kind of super weirdo for not realizing this sooner (see?!? I’m being negative again! Gah!), but suddenly my brain said “hey, just put snack food together for a meal, and you’ll feel like you’re splurging”.

I bought this adorable bento box, and I think it was money well spent. I have so much fun packing my lunches.

Open bento box

(Veggie wrap, cucumber, quinoa salad, plum)

Closed bento box
(Water crackers, hummus, feta, plum, tomato, and Field Roast)

Do you have any diet tips that are actually fun? Have you tried a bento box?

Jillian

 

Weigh In Wednesday- Sun Bear Edition

sun bearMy weight is still stable this week.

I went to the zoo over the weekend, and I saw this Sun Bear. Poor Sun Bear! He had too many cocktails last night, or maybe just didn’t stick to his diet very well. 🙂 He is obviously my spirit animal, so I had to take a ton of pictures. I know exactly how he feels.

Sometimes I just want to give up on myself. EVERY DAY I continue to indulge in something that I meant not to.

However, unlike the bear, I have freedom. I can make my own choices, go where I want, do what I want. I want to start viewing my health like I view my budget. I love having a budget for my money, because it allows me to see exactly where I have room to splurge. I have $50 extra dollars, I can choose where to put it and that gives me freedom.

So… I’m proposing that I (we? who’s on board) use that freedom with my lifestyle change. If I mess up in one way, I give up and do everything wrong. THAT’S TERRIBLE! If I did that with my budget, I would probably be homeless or in jail. If I want to not work out, I can’t have a drink. If I want a drink, I can’t chase it with chocolate. See what I mean? I know what this is- it is moderation. The very thing that people have been preaching at me my whole life, and I haven’t found. Now is the time.

Does anyone have any help for me? I think Nike’s slogan is all I really need here 🙂

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- a Cleanse

cleanseWarning: if cleanses or detoxes of any sort may trigger you, this would be a great time to stop reading this and go to the Shiba category and look at cute animals!

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I wanted to do a cleanse, but not a full on one because those turn me into a crazy person. I think it’s a little beyond my mental capacity right now. My real goal is to get myself off sugar. Every time I eat something with very much sugar I feel like garbage, but I can’t stop eating it! There’s always chocolate at work, J keeps sugary snacks at home- and I have no self control even though I know it makes me feel gross.

The guidelines of my cleanse are no added sugar (fruit is okay), no alcohol, no caffeine, and extra fruits and veggies. I already don’t eat meat, and I limit dairy and eggs. I’m doing smoothies at work, because I need to go cold turkey if I’m going to get off this sugar habit. Basically, I’m doing a cleanse like BluePrint, but I’m making up my own rules and not spending $65 a day (I’m sure they’re lovely people, but come on. really?!). I’m also doing smoothies instead of juice because for me, cutting the fiber out of my food seems silly. I don’t understand why people drink juice and laxative tea, when they could just leave the fiber in their juice… anyway, I’m digressing. So I made three smoothies on Sunday night, roughly following this recipe. I used mostly spinach, with banana, cherries, and water. Then I made two protein shake/smoothies. I used half water and half unsweetened coconut milk, plus one serving of protein powder and 2/3 cup of mango. This is what I had throughout the day on Monday, though I didn’t drink the third green smoothie. Then I ate a normal dinner, but without dessert or alcohol. I did the same thing yesterday. It has been hard to resist sweets, but it’s easier for me when I flat out tell myself it IS NOT an option. I will continue for a week or until I start to feel like I will drown in smoothies. I think that a week is a good goal. I actually started on Sunday, so I just have to make it through Saturday! After three days of this, I am still very close to last week’s weight. This is probably good, I am filling my body with nutrients and not losing water weight.

I had my first (of three) personal training sessions last night! She kept having to cancel, so I was really losing motivation. Now it’s back! It’s back because it was a wake up call in a big way. The set up was probably the worst possible scenario for someone that is seeking personal training because they are unhappy with their body. One wall is mirrors, two walls are floor windows that go to the parking lot and sidewalk. Anyone in the world can watch. I know that no one cares, but it’s still hard to not feel like you’re in a fishbowl. I also have been avoiding truly looking at my body, and the outfit I chose, the mirrors, and the lighting did not allow me to hide anymore.I need to get serious so I can feel better about myself, and feel better in general.

You may be wondering how my yoga is going. It’s not. I meant to start Sunday, but was so sick and slept for as much of the day as possible. Then Monday came and I remembered I had personal training Tuesday and wouldn’t be able to go Tuesday. Thus, I decided to start tonight so I can try to go seven days in a row. I really need to drag my slacker self over there. Part of it is anxiety- I hate going into a new class. The other part is I hate leaving Riley the puppy bear 🙂

Note: I use Arbonne protein powder (this is an affiliate link- if you buy this I will get a small percentage). It is vegan, gluten free, soy free, has no artificial sweeteners, and tastes like cake batter. I’ve only tried the vanilla, but it’s good with everything. Arbonne is one of those weird club things. If you or someone you know is in the club, you should definitely buy it from there because it’s cheaper. Sometimes I do that, but if I can’t get on board with someone else’s order I get it off Amazon. I thought I would mention it because it’s so hard to find vegan protein powder, and this is the only one I’ve ever liked. A lot of people like Sun Warrior, but I can’t stand it. It feels like sand in my mouth.

Happy Wednesday!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Detox

smoothiesI am finally going to give myself a kick in the pants- it is detox time. I’ve been looking for a while for a new yoga place (okay, for at least six months). The place I loved was way too far away, and then it closed down anyway. I figured out that there is a nice studio not too far from our house, and they have a deal for beginners- seven yoga classes in seven days for $25. I thought to myself, what better way to jump start myself? My body loves yoga. I can cram in as much yoga as possible while finding out what the best classes are. I try to do yoga at home, but it’s nearly impossible for me to focus and really relax there. I’m always getting distracted with chores or dogs or… well, I’m sure you know how it goes.

In the meantime, if I’m going to be getting my zen on; it’s a perfect time to infuse my body with fruits and vegetables. The more healthy food I eat, the more I crave. I have been using sugar as a serious crutch, and I want to stop. Whenever I eat something sugary, I immediately feel like garbage. I just keep eating stuff because it’s there and delicious.

As for the weigh in~ I am almost exactly the same. I say almost, because I couldn’t bring myself to take off my hoodie for my weigh in (that’s how sick I am. I just could not do it). I am guessing as to what my exact weight is, but for this week it doesn’t really matter. I know it’s not good, and I’m not going to let it define where I go from here.

So, my plan is to start the yoga membership on Sunday and go as much as I can all week. I am also going to cut out sugar and alcohol for the week, and focus on smoothies and fresh produce. I don’t think I can put any recipes from the book on here, but I will also be using my old standby that I wrote about here.

If you’ve tried yoga, what is your favorite pose? I love tree. I need the balance. Even when I’m falling over, it just feels so right!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Where is My Motivation?

Riley FlowersI weighed in at 1.4 pounds less than last week. This is actually a good amount to lose, and it’s my first loss since week one. I’m down 4.2 since I started January 1, but I feel defeated. I’m not doing particularly badly, and my habits have been good overall (good compared to the past, anyway). I am happy about the loss and encouraged by it, but I still feel like I’m doing a bad job.

The problem is I’ve kind of stopped caring. I mentioned last week that I might need a cleanse. I don’t really want to do that, but for some reason they really tend to jump start me.

My husband sent me these flowers yesterday “just because”. He said that he knew I had a long day and wanted to cheer me up. He picked these because my dogs are white. Isn’t the arrangement so cute? I guess my point is, there are good things going on. Life can only get better if I focus more on my health. I’ve been putting stuff off so that I can spend more time with my puppy. That’s kind of an “excuse”, kind of a “reason”. Puppies do take a lot of work, but I know I need to strategize.

DakotaIn other puppy news, I met this little darling on Sunday. His name is Dakota and he belongs to my little niece. He’s a 10 week old Siberian Husky. So precious, I could not put him down.

Today’s goal is to put work outs and meal planning in my calendar. Once it’s in the calendar, I have to do it, right?! I also brought three green smoothies with me to drink during my work day. Wish me luck…

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Getting Back on Track

lemon meringue pieI have good news and bad news. The good news is, I made the lemon meringue pie version of the drink recipe that I posted last week. It was so delicious. You should make one immediately.

The bad news is, I have totally flopped on my diet. I have been eating good food, but I have been adding in too much junk food. I had a fried food binge on Friday, and just too many little snacks over the weekend. Yesterday I pretty much ate just candy until 1:00pm. I have a bunch of soup, and I’ve started eating that to get in more veggies.

Maybe it’s time to do one of the cleanses that I put on my goals? Anyone want to do a cleanse?

I weighed in at a gain of .4, which makes the running total a loss of 2.8. I feel gross, and I don’t want to fail. My personal training session got cancelled yesterday, and I actually rowed at home for 50 minutes instead of using it as an excuse to do nothing. I am counting that as a big victory, because it’s the closest thing to victory I’ve had this week.

Riley pieI’m super tired because ever since Riley the cutie pie got spayed, she has been nothing but trouble. She has been getting into everything (stealing my laptop and trying to blog!), whining all night, and in general trying to rip her stitches open. I think that once I can let her play hard again she will be fine, but she is just frustrated that I won’t let her get her energy out.

I don’t understand how all of the parents out there function without sleep. I have lost all desire to do anything that I don’t absolutely have to do. What is your secret?? Am I doomed to not have a baby because I can barely function with a puppy? Help!

Jillian