Weigh In Wednesday and the Status Quo

bear nailsI thought I should report in- I did do the manicure that I talked about on Saturday! It didn’t come out as cute as hers, but I still like it! I definitely felt less than professional in my meetings this week, but with the bears on the thumbs it’s easier to hide those away.

My weight is the same as last week (still at a total loss of 6.8 pounds). I honestly haven’t been working very hard this week. I have been putting my energy toward finding a therapist. This is probably too personal for the internet, so I won’t get too detailed. The general idea is I’ve decided that since I’m taking life in my own hands this year, I should start from scratch. I think that a lot of my weight issues are related to not taking care of myself in the right ways. I need to prioritize my health and my sanity. I want to live intentionally and relaxed 🙂 Talking to an unbiased party will help me sort out how to achieve my goals- or at least that’s what I’m hoping.

That said, I have kind of been maintaining the status quo. One change that I’ve made that I’m happy about is I’ve been eating a lot more salads. That is a huge step for me, since my natural inclination is to eat every carb I’ve ever seen in my life. Making one small change is a huge deal for me, because I tend to either make huge changes I can’t maintain, or no changes at all.

I’m still really struggling with exercise. My energy has been so low, and I just have zero motivation. What should my next small change be? What are you working on this week?

Jillian

Five Guilty Pleasures That Cheer Me Up

bear nailsSometimes life is exhausting, and this has just been one of those weeks. It’s time to put some effort into becoming myself again; instead of a crazy, stressed out version of myself. Here’s what I want to do this weekend:

1. I adore this manicure by polishpedia.com. Probably because I’m such a girly girl and love pink and bears. I’m not going to apologize. I will say, I’ve done it before, and pink is actually not a great color. If you’re not a super genius artist, the bear will end up looking like a pig. Also, I didn’t actually watch her video, so maybe that’s part of the problem. But I think I’m going to do it with white and gray.

2. A good work out on my rower while I watch Scandal. I still haven’t seen it!! No one can ruin it for me! Please?! This will give me about 50 minutes of cardio, which should definitely give me happy vibes.

3. A long walk in the park with the Shibas.

4. Undoubtedly, an afternoon nap. I just can’t even tell you how much I want this.

5. This is probably not a guilty pleasure, but I’m going to eat a salad and a green smoothie. I need veggies and vitamins, and I know they will perk me up.

Any other awesome ideas? Tomorrow I get to hang out with my darling M ❤ , and girl time is the ultimate pick me up!

Jillian

I Wish I Were in Hawaii- Who’s With Me?

honeymoon maui 2012mauiboats in mauibamboo forestmaui 2012maui fogsurferspalm treesThese are old (ish)- from our honeymoon in December 2012. I just had to share them. I am so ready for winter to be over…

Jillian

Beauty From My Phone

Hello my lovelies 🙂 For today, I want to share with you some of my favorite pictures from my phone. The first is the most amazing- my friend took this. I have always lived in the Northwest, and I had NO IDEA that real snowflakes looked like this. Seriously, this is not magnified and it is her car window. What?? Am I the only one who didn’t know this was a thing?

We also have some dog friends, the giraffe at the zoo, and the view in my friend’s mirror on her drive to work. Beauty in everything!

snowflakes

Riley scary teeth

giraffeBaileyseattle roadriley belleI hope you have a beautiful day! It’s finally getting sunny here, at least temporarily, and I am loving it. Anyone else have any sunshine?

Jillian

Sephora and My Free Nars Gift Review

Nars birthday giftA friend and I went to the mall (not a common occurrence, despite what my blog suggests), and I couldn’t resist Sephora. I need some new basics, and got the Anastasia brow powder duo (I absolutely cannot leave the house without brow powder) and some Sephora mascara. At the register, I got my free birthday gift that I had totally forgotten about!

For anyone that doesn’t know, if you get the free Sephora card, you get a deluxe sample on your birthday, and it’s always something awesome. You also get random samples based on points, which happens pretty often since everything at Sephora is a trillion dollars. Anyway. I was super excited about my gift. It is a two pack of Nars lip pencils. It came with a deep red- Cruella velvet matte lip pencil, and a mauve of sorts- Rikugien satin lip pencil. I tried them on and have cheesy pictures for y’all to see 🙂

The velvet matte felt like a dry lipstick. If I am ever brave enough to wear this in public, which is unlikely to happen, I will put gloss over it. The satin lip was super moisturizing and felt soft and smooth. As for color, I think they both worked, but let me know what you think. My bare lips are first, then Rikugien (in my opinion, so similar to my natural color it’s not worth wearing), then Cruella (cute but OMG not my style and made me feel I needed to put on more makeup).

bare lipsRikugien lipscruella lipsI would never have bought this, but I think it is super fun to play with. The lip pencil is easier to apply than regular lip stick, which was helpful for the bold red.

Jillian

Finding Beauty in Things That Suck

sunriseI really dislike commuting, it just feels like an epic waste of time. However, then there is this view. I snapped this a few days ago on my morning commute (yes, I’m an irresponsible driver, but some opportunities you just can’t pass up!). The sunrise makes me so happy. I couldn’t exactly stop and take more pictures, but I can also see a mountain out there further to the right. It is epic.

There is nearly always an upside (I’m sorry, but I am just not advanced enough to see it in *everything*), and I am working hard to see it. For example, I wish I wouldn’t think that I hate commuting. I actually am really happy about the fact that since we moved over the summer, I have been able to shave 20 minutes EACH WAY off of my commute. We’re now close enough that I can go home at lunch to let my puppy outside. I also get to enjoy views like this, and when I can pull my mind away from the insanity of drivers around me (like that irresponsible driver taking pictures of the sunrise 😉 ), I actually have 20 minutes or so of peace to think about how I want to live my day. Part of seeking minimalism for me is to minimize the mental space that I give to stress, pessimism, and negativity. This is a huge stretch for me. Those that know me well probably have a lot to say about that, but in my mind I have made progress.

The more I try to banish negativity, the more I notice these things:

  • many of my negative statements to others are based on insecurity. I want to insult myself before someone else can. At my personal training appointment, I kept saying negative things about myself to my trainer. She scolded me for it and it sucked, I wanted to cry because I already felt so bad. But why was I doing it? Because I didn’t like how I looked or how I was doing, and I thought she felt the same way. I doubt she even cared.
  • people that say negative things to me often seem to be worried that I am judging their choices, or worried that I am missing out on something. For example, those who are overly critical of my vegetarianism are usually eating meat. I haven’t said a word about it (I don’t care what they’re eating), but they are still defensive. I also get many negative comments about how I don’t have children. They upset me for many reasons, but I am working on seeing this negativity as loving concern. If I can see that harsh comments are not necessarily about people not liking me, it helps me because I have less anxiety.
  • negative thinking destroys me. No good ever comes of it, and nothing bad ever comes from seeing myself and the world around me in a positive light. If I want to be happy, I need to love myself before I expect other people to.

I don’t enjoy doing laundry or making the bed, but I focus on how good it will feel to crawl into those soft, fresh sheets. An argument makes me anxious and hurt, but talking things out in a constructive manner brings people closer together.

I will admit, the harder stuff- death, illness, etc,- I’m just not there yet. But maybe someday I will be. For now, dealing with the smaller stuff is really tough for me, so I have to master it a little at a time.

Has anyone else tried to minimize negativity? Did it work?

Jillian