Theory of Beauty 

 “I have this theory, that if we’re told we’re bad; then that’s the only idea we’ll ever have. Maybe if we are surrounded in beauty, one day we will become what we see.” Jewel “I’m Sensitive”

Throughout high school, college, and a few years after, I was obsessed with Jewel. I still kind of am, but I often forget she exists. Then I remember, and I go on Jewel listening binges. 

I love the lyrics to most of her songs, but “I’m Sensitive” has always stood out to me. Maybe because I am much more sensitive and easily wounded than I try to let on, but I also just love this idea of surrounding yourself with beauty. Let’s take that a step further- I want to help create that beauty for other people. 

How can I do that? Well… I could probably start with my attitude. I’m still working on that whole pessimism thing. And, let’s be honest, I should work on not being a bitch half the time! 

I think that seeing beauty in life is often just taking the time to slow down and appreciate. I feel life is beautiful when I spend time with those I love, go on a long walk, or go try something new. 

Does anyone have any suggestions? 

Jillian

Simplify Sunday- Use it or Lose it

  Someone awesome gave me this roll of duct tape for Christmas. I do realize that sounds ridiculous, but I love the Packers and I actually needed some duct tape. One of my dogs (offender pictured here) had chewed up this gate- to the point where I worried the bar would snap. The gate is meant to be more of a reminder to people not to let the dogs out than an actual foolproof deterrent, but still. Holes are not good! 

So, I went ahead and classed up the apartment by “repairing” the gate with Packers themed duct tape. For related reasons (Lambeau likes to crawl into the fireplace), I used the duct tape to cover the opening to the fireplace with cardboard. 

The gifter came over this week, and remarked that he was so glad I was using the tape. I told him that I loved it! Then he expanded on his point, and I realized that wasn’t what he had been getting at. 

He said that he would probably have just saved it because he liked it so much, and then brought up that he tends to save things like samples for a trip or something special. Then those occasions never come and they expire. 

I definitely used to be like that! When he said that, I remembered how I used to save everything for the future. You know what happens? Products and food expire, clothes that are saved for special occasions go out of style or no longer fit, your tastes change and (gasp) maybe you don’t even like the Packers anymore so you throw the duct tape away. The special dishes for guests get broken in a move or just sit around collecting dust.

One day I just realized that the special day is TODAY. I should use and enjoy it now. It sounds trite, but life really is too short. I used to force myself to use lotions I had been given with scents I didn’t like. I didn’t want to waste them! I would save the scents that made me happy for after those I didn’t like were gone. It takes months to use a container of lotion! What am I doing? Am I running a freaking lotion conservatory here?! I’m robbing myself of a moment of joy every time I smell the lotion, and replacing it with a grimace. 

It’s just stupid. Use what you like now. Live your life to the fullest. Use your best dishes for your family. Who is more special than them? While you’re at it, get rid of the dishes you use every day that you don’t even like but they are cheap. Or, if these dishes really are too expensive to enjoy using without stress, display them. 

If you have duct tape that you want to display, I have plenty of ideas for that, too. 😀

Jillian 

Lumosity. It’s a Problem. 

train game
In August, K came to visit. It was glorious! One thing she left me with was an addiction to Lumosity.

It’s kind of just another phone app, but it’s supposed to be good for your brain. Hey, I’ll take something that makes me smarter!

There is a free option, which is what I have. The free option gives you three games a day, and they choose them for you.

Here’s where I get into trouble. There is a game with trains. The goal is to get each train into the station that it matches. I am so obsessed with this game (and my use of the word obsession here is not in the typical blog sense of “oh it’s a trend that I like”). When this game comes up, I cannot stop playing it. It can go on for over an hour.

K has asked me if I am going to buy the paid version. First of all, it’s really pretty expensive. Second of all, I MUST be saved from myself. This is ridiculous.

The burning question is- do any of you play this? Do you know about the train game? I’m on the last level, but it doesn’t seem to be possible to beat it. They just keep adding more trains! Does it ever end? I don’t know how to cut the cord!

Oh, and just as your reward for reading this far, I give you this conversation, where I confess my worst mistake of the day:

life

Jillian

Weekend Update- Staycation

My dear friend and bear, K, came to visit last weekend. She arrived Thursday night and we ran all over the place. We did way too much shopping and had so many delicious snacks.

Our Snickertinis at Bartini– my new favorite happy hour. $4 martinis and a huge menu of food, including fondue. snickertinis

I hate beer, I really do. However, a nice guy was handing out samples of this at Cost Plus and umm I just can’t even tell you. It really tastes like cherries. It’s amazing. cherry beer 

This one actually happened last weekend. J and I went to a picnic to benefit Shiba Inu rescue, and he won an awesome gift basket in the auction. On Saturday he gave me this super cool clock by Modern Moose from the basket! 

Desserts from the awesome Papa Hadyn on NW 23rd. K got the bourbon ball and sparkling wine, and I got baked Alaska. I had always wanted to try it, and it did not disappoint!desserts

We spent some time Sunday afternoon at Powell’s, the world’s best bookstore. I bought three books, but this was the one that got away. Next time!     powell's 

My grandma turned 90 today, so we had a party yesterday to celebrate.  grandma gladys
K’s survival kit for the train. Whipped cream vodka, gummy bears, and 7-Up. Nice ending to the weekend!emergency kit 

Something else I tried that I had always heard was great was Sizzle Pie. They had three vegan options out for slices. I could not believe it. They also do half slices, so I got to try two flavors. No picture because it disappeared in a flash! The flavors I tried were crazy- one had marinara, sweet onion, and nutritional yeast. The other had tofu, hashbrowns, chiles, fake bacon, and olive oil. I am probably missing some toppings, but it was nuts. Go try it if there is one near you!

❤️ Jillian

This is What People Think of My Athletic Endeavors 

April Fool’s Day Came Early 

  

So, I’m going to be honest. I’m not known for being the greatest driver in the world (to put it mildly). However, my family is all basically terrible at driving, so a) I come by it honestly and b) who are they to criticize?! 

Literally my sister once hit my car while it was parked (with her car). She’s going to get mad at me for saying that, but you’ll see in a minute why she deserves it… 

Yesterday J, Riley, and I went to my sister’s house for lunch with my family. My two grandmas had decided they wanted to see each other, so we had a grandma party! 

  

My little brother is rocking my world in this picture. Just sayin’. 

Anyway, so we have the party and then head back to Portland. I haven’t been sleeping much, and after about 45 minutes I pull over to walk Riley- hoping that the walk will wake me up because I’m starting to feel cloudy and sleepy. I take her out (she’s in a car carrier on my side of the car), and walk around the front of my car to get to the grass. We walk for a bit and I feel much better. 

For some reason, when I go back to the car I walk around the back. 

That offensive magnet is on my car!!!!!!!!

  

At first I think it’s a sticker and I’m outraged. Then I realize it’s a magnet and pull it off and am a little less outraged. Still, I have been driving with this on my car for 45 minutes!! Lol! 

I get back in the car and tell my husband that he and my siblings are a bunch of ***holes. He tries to act all innocent. 

Later, my sister tries to act all innocent too but cracks quickly, as she’s dying to know how long it took me to find it. 

My brother hasn’t admitted to anything yet, but he just graduated driver’s ed so I KNOW he’s involved. 

They’re a bunch of little punks. 

Still, I’m jealous of their general hilarity and am now trying to decide who’s car I will put the magnet on… 

What’s the best practical joke someone has played on you?

Jillian