Weigh In Wednesday- a Cleanse

cleanseWarning: if cleanses or detoxes of any sort may trigger you, this would be a great time to stop reading this and go to the Shiba category and look at cute animals!

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I wanted to do a cleanse, but not a full on one because those turn me into a crazy person. I think it’s a little beyond my mental capacity right now. My real goal is to get myself off sugar. Every time I eat something with very much sugar I feel like garbage, but I can’t stop eating it! There’s always chocolate at work, J keeps sugary snacks at home- and I have no self control even though I know it makes me feel gross.

The guidelines of my cleanse are no added sugar (fruit is okay), no alcohol, no caffeine, and extra fruits and veggies. I already don’t eat meat, and I limit dairy and eggs. I’m doing smoothies at work, because I need to go cold turkey if I’m going to get off this sugar habit. Basically, I’m doing a cleanse like BluePrint, but I’m making up my own rules and not spending $65 a day (I’m sure they’re lovely people, but come on. really?!). I’m also doing smoothies instead of juice because for me, cutting the fiber out of my food seems silly. I don’t understand why people drink juice and laxative tea, when they could just leave the fiber in their juice… anyway, I’m digressing. So I made three smoothies on Sunday night, roughly following this recipe. I used mostly spinach, with banana, cherries, and water. Then I made two protein shake/smoothies. I used half water and half unsweetened coconut milk, plus one serving of protein powder and 2/3 cup of mango. This is what I had throughout the day on Monday, though I didn’t drink the third green smoothie. Then I ate a normal dinner, but without dessert or alcohol. I did the same thing yesterday. It has been hard to resist sweets, but it’s easier for me when I flat out tell myself it IS NOT an option. I will continue for a week or until I start to feel like I will drown in smoothies. I think that a week is a good goal. I actually started on Sunday, so I just have to make it through Saturday! After three days of this, I am still very close to last week’s weight. This is probably good, I am filling my body with nutrients and not losing water weight.

I had my first (of three) personal training sessions last night! She kept having to cancel, so I was really losing motivation. Now it’s back! It’s back because it was a wake up call in a big way. The set up was probably the worst possible scenario for someone that is seeking personal training because they are unhappy with their body. One wall is mirrors, two walls are floor windows that go to the parking lot and sidewalk. Anyone in the world can watch. I know that no one cares, but it’s still hard to not feel like you’re in a fishbowl. I also have been avoiding truly looking at my body, and the outfit I chose, the mirrors, and the lighting did not allow me to hide anymore.I need to get serious so I can feel better about myself, and feel better in general.

You may be wondering how my yoga is going. It’s not. I meant to start Sunday, but was so sick and slept for as much of the day as possible. Then Monday came and I remembered I had personal training Tuesday and wouldn’t be able to go Tuesday. Thus, I decided to start tonight so I can try to go seven days in a row. I really need to drag my slacker self over there. Part of it is anxiety- I hate going into a new class. The other part is I hate leaving Riley the puppy bear 🙂

Note: I use Arbonne protein powder (this is an affiliate link- if you buy this I will get a small percentage). It is vegan, gluten free, soy free, has no artificial sweeteners, and tastes like cake batter. I’ve only tried the vanilla, but it’s good with everything. Arbonne is one of those weird club things. If you or someone you know is in the club, you should definitely buy it from there because it’s cheaper. Sometimes I do that, but if I can’t get on board with someone else’s order I get it off Amazon. I thought I would mention it because it’s so hard to find vegan protein powder, and this is the only one I’ve ever liked. A lot of people like Sun Warrior, but I can’t stand it. It feels like sand in my mouth.

Happy Wednesday!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Detox

smoothiesI am finally going to give myself a kick in the pants- it is detox time. I’ve been looking for a while for a new yoga place (okay, for at least six months). The place I loved was way too far away, and then it closed down anyway. I figured out that there is a nice studio not too far from our house, and they have a deal for beginners- seven yoga classes in seven days for $25. I thought to myself, what better way to jump start myself? My body loves yoga. I can cram in as much yoga as possible while finding out what the best classes are. I try to do yoga at home, but it’s nearly impossible for me to focus and really relax there. I’m always getting distracted with chores or dogs or… well, I’m sure you know how it goes.

In the meantime, if I’m going to be getting my zen on; it’s a perfect time to infuse my body with fruits and vegetables. The more healthy food I eat, the more I crave. I have been using sugar as a serious crutch, and I want to stop. Whenever I eat something sugary, I immediately feel like garbage. I just keep eating stuff because it’s there and delicious.

As for the weigh in~ I am almost exactly the same. I say almost, because I couldn’t bring myself to take off my hoodie for my weigh in (that’s how sick I am. I just could not do it). I am guessing as to what my exact weight is, but for this week it doesn’t really matter. I know it’s not good, and I’m not going to let it define where I go from here.

So, my plan is to start the yoga membership on Sunday and go as much as I can all week. I am also going to cut out sugar and alcohol for the week, and focus on smoothies and fresh produce. I don’t think I can put any recipes from the book on here, but I will also be using my old standby that I wrote about here.

If you’ve tried yoga, what is your favorite pose? I love tree. I need the balance. Even when I’m falling over, it just feels so right!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Where is My Motivation?

Riley FlowersI weighed in at 1.4 pounds less than last week. This is actually a good amount to lose, and it’s my first loss since week one. I’m down 4.2 since I started January 1, but I feel defeated. I’m not doing particularly badly, and my habits have been good overall (good compared to the past, anyway). I am happy about the loss and encouraged by it, but I still feel like I’m doing a bad job.

The problem is I’ve kind of stopped caring. I mentioned last week that I might need a cleanse. I don’t really want to do that, but for some reason they really tend to jump start me.

My husband sent me these flowers yesterday “just because”. He said that he knew I had a long day and wanted to cheer me up. He picked these because my dogs are white. Isn’t the arrangement so cute? I guess my point is, there are good things going on. Life can only get better if I focus more on my health. I’ve been putting stuff off so that I can spend more time with my puppy. That’s kind of an “excuse”, kind of a “reason”. Puppies do take a lot of work, but I know I need to strategize.

DakotaIn other puppy news, I met this little darling on Sunday. His name is Dakota and he belongs to my little niece. He’s a 10 week old Siberian Husky. So precious, I could not put him down.

Today’s goal is to put work outs and meal planning in my calendar. Once it’s in the calendar, I have to do it, right?! I also brought three green smoothies with me to drink during my work day. Wish me luck…

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Getting Back on Track

lemon meringue pieI have good news and bad news. The good news is, I made the lemon meringue pie version of the drink recipe that I posted last week. It was so delicious. You should make one immediately.

The bad news is, I have totally flopped on my diet. I have been eating good food, but I have been adding in too much junk food. I had a fried food binge on Friday, and just too many little snacks over the weekend. Yesterday I pretty much ate just candy until 1:00pm. I have a bunch of soup, and I’ve started eating that to get in more veggies.

Maybe it’s time to do one of the cleanses that I put on my goals? Anyone want to do a cleanse?

I weighed in at a gain of .4, which makes the running total a loss of 2.8. I feel gross, and I don’t want to fail. My personal training session got cancelled yesterday, and I actually rowed at home for 50 minutes instead of using it as an excuse to do nothing. I am counting that as a big victory, because it’s the closest thing to victory I’ve had this week.

Riley pieI’m super tired because ever since Riley the cutie pie got spayed, she has been nothing but trouble. She has been getting into everything (stealing my laptop and trying to blog!), whining all night, and in general trying to rip her stitches open. I think that once I can let her play hard again she will be fine, but she is just frustrated that I won’t let her get her energy out.

I don’t understand how all of the parents out there function without sleep. I have lost all desire to do anything that I don’t absolutely have to do. What is your secret?? Am I doomed to not have a baby because I can barely function with a puppy? Help!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday #2

Happy Herbivore Stuffed Bell PeppersThis week was my first time using the Happy Herbivore meal plan (all vegan, oil free, whole foods based) exactly as intended. The idea is that she provides a meal plan (for every meal for a week, including snacks) that gives you around 1,200 calories a day. You also get a shopping list, recipes, and prep plan. The prep is meant to take about two hours and sets you up for the WHOLE WEEK. It took me four hours and thirteen minutes, including cleaning the kitchen. I think I will get faster with practice. It’s a little crazy cooking several meals at once time, and I wasn’t really ready for this level of multitasking. Three to four dishes at once was the most I could pull off. The prep plan was so cool- she tells you what grains to start (like rice and pasta) and what to do with each veggie. Once you start cooking you have everything ready for every dish! The meal pictured is the Stuffed Bell Pepper.

The one I did this week had me making all meals except for a few quick breakfasts that I put together on the go. I was very skeptical of this idea, worrying that the food would go bad. I’ve previously just made the meals every day. However, a huge stumbling block for me is eating whatever I can find that is ready to go when I’m hungry. This results in eating french fries at work, chip type snacks or cookies at home, anything I can find and it is always unhealthy. Having healthy food ready to go is incredible!

My weigh in has me at a gain of one pound. So, that brings me to 3.2 pounds lost in two weeks. I wish I had actually lost this week, but I actually feel really good about using the meal plans. I can’t blame them, since I have been eating extra snacks and it’s also every woman’s favorite time of the month.

I’m worried that I will lose stamina on spending a huge block of time on the weekends cooking everything, but it was so beneficial this week and I’m hoping I’ll be able to remember that when I’m feeling lazy. It saves so much time during my crazy work week, and definitely helped me avoid junk food. Now I just need to stay stronger!

Next week I have my first personal training session at the Diva Den (I got a great deal on a three session package on Black Friday), and I am excited to see how it goes. I already had the consultation and I loved my trainer. We had a great talk about how I do have a big weight loss goal, but my end game is to be thin, toned, and strong. My focus needs to be to stop eating anything that isn’t on the plan, but it is almost my birthday and I think that the rest of this week will bring challenges on that front.

I have been asked if I will post before and after pictures. I’m considering the yellow dress picture in this post my before picture, and I will post some photos along the way as the loss becomes noticeable.

Here is my journal link if anyone wants to check it!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday #1

calories for the weekI decided it would be best to just do a weekly update on my diet, aka lifestyle change, so that no one gets overwhelmed (including me!). I am trying to weigh myself just once a week, but I have not been able to resist a few check ins. These are done while wearing tons of clothes, so they’re not very accurate; but they let me know that at least I’m not gaining. This is good for calming down my weight freak outs and motivating me to not binge eat. Today was my “official” weigh in. I lost 4.2 pounds this week! I am so excited, because it really motivates me to keep going when I see that first week big loss.

This first week has not been the start with a bang that I usually go for (discipline wise), but I actually think that is probably a good thing. I typically start a new diet with some sort of fast, based on the premise that after that I would be grateful for any food (even healthy food). I greatly suspect that it is extremes like this that get me in trouble in the first place. I’m not saying that I won’t throw in a juice fast, master cleanse, et cetera- just that it doesn’t feel right at the moment. Maybe in February?

skinnier JillianThis week has been about controlling my portions and not snacking. I haven’t been perfect. I have only done two work outs, when my goal for a week is four. I have gone over my calories three times, but still have been under what I would normally eat each day. I also haven’t started my Happy Herbivore plan yet. That will be my big goal for next week. Her plans give you 1,200 calories a day without having to count, which is so fantastic I don’t even have words. I don’t know why I sabotaged myself by not doing it this week. I’m using another old picture for motivation, the one that I posted on the left. Or maybe I’m just wishing I had a drink in my hand?

Knowing that I have you all watching my back is a big help! Thank you so much 🙂 I have bl3ss3dfitn3ss helping me out- does anyone else want to join us? What are your goals? I am very serious about losing weight and getting back in shape to run. I want this Spring to be a great one full of gorgeous runs, and I would love to be able to go off my high cholesterol medication. You can still follow my eating and exercise on my Sparkpage, if you’re curious to see what’s really going on over here. You don’t have to sign up for anything, you just follow the link and click on “shared food & fitness trackers”. It’s about halfway down the right hand side. I’m hoping this week will be less embarrassing than last week.

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

Jillian