Weigh In Wednesday and the Status Quo

bear nailsI thought I should report in- I did do the manicure that I talked about on Saturday! It didn’t come out as cute as hers, but I still like it! I definitely felt less than professional in my meetings this week, but with the bears on the thumbs it’s easier to hide those away.

My weight is the same as last week (still at a total loss of 6.8 pounds). I honestly haven’t been working very hard this week. I have been putting my energy toward finding a therapist. This is probably too personal for the internet, so I won’t get too detailed. The general idea is I’ve decided that since I’m taking life in my own hands this year, I should start from scratch. I think that a lot of my weight issues are related to not taking care of myself in the right ways. I need to prioritize my health and my sanity. I want to live intentionally and relaxed ๐Ÿ™‚ Talking to an unbiased party will help me sort out how to achieve my goals- or at least that’s what I’m hoping.

That said, I have kind of been maintaining the status quo. One change that I’ve made that I’m happy about is I’ve been eating a lot more salads. That is a huge step for me, since my natural inclination is to eat every carb I’ve ever seen in my life. Making one small change is a huge deal for me, because I tend to either make huge changes I can’t maintain, or no changes at all.

I’m still really struggling with exercise. My energy has been so low, and I just have zero motivation. What should my next small change be? What are you working on this week?

Jillian

Lunette Cup and Luna Pads~ How I Changed My Way of Thinking

lunetteIf you’re male, I would stop reading here, unless you *really* want to learn what a menstrual cup is (hint, you probably don’t, unless you’re a single dad to a girl). You probably just want to live the charmed life that you have as a man. You were warned. Even for women, this entire post has a TMI warning ๐Ÿ™‚

Who knows what a menstrual cup is? I didn’t, until my sister told me I should get a Diva Cup. I’m pretty sure my response was something like “wt* is that?”. She explained to me that it was a cup that you insert in your vagina, an alternative to a pad or tampon. I had heard of these, but only the disposable version. I was always scared about spilling those when taking them out. Well, this is even more intimidating. You pull it out, dump it, wash it, and put it back again.

That’s all I needed to hear. I wanted no part of this disgusting process, and told her she was insane. She said okay and dropped it.

I didn’t mean it though. I thought it was crazy that this secret thing existed and I knew nothing about it. I must know everything! Immediately! I started reading reviews, and saw that basically everyone that’s ever tried it thinks it’s the best thing in the world. You know that awful feeling when you pull out a tampon that apparently was heavier flow than you needed, and it’s dry and feels like it’s tearing out your insides? The reviews said that doesn’t happen with a cup. They also said that tampons cause cramps. WHAT?!?!?!?!? Is this a joke?? Tampons have been causing my cramps?! WT* is going on in this world run by men? They’re creating tampons now to give us cramps, under the guise that they’re helping us?? OMG. I didn’t really believe it, but that sold me. I wanted to try it.

The reviews taught me that the Diva Cup doesn’t fit everyone. There are different sizes and different brands. I found this cool chart that helped me figure out which one would be best. I’m not going to get too detailed here, but I decided on the Model 1 Lunette cup. According to the recommendations I should have gotten a bigger one since I’m older, but reviews I read (I seriously probably read 1,000) told me that I needed something smaller. That’s a problem I see here- finding the right cup could definitely take trial and error, and they are around $40 each. I got lucky finding the right one on the first try.

When I first got it, it took an entire cycle to figure out how to use it. I was scared to death (I’m kind of melodramatic), and the first time I put it in it hurt so bad. I had some leaking at first, and had to experiment with different folds (Google them on YouTube! Different folds make all the difference!). I recommend wearing a pad or pantyliner while you’re finding your groove.

Here is why I love it, and will never ever go back:

  1. I never have to go to the store to buy tampons or pads again. I have what I need, all the time (I do use cloth pantyliners as well, from Luna Pads). This is convenient, plus after the one time investment I don’t have to spend any more money.
  2. It doesn’t leak. There is a learning curve, and I do wear the pantyliners just in case, but I have so many less leaks than with tampons. Even when working out!
  3. I have a heavy flow and was emptying it all the time at first, but figured out quickly that I really only needed to do it every 8-12 hours. With tampons I was doing about every four hours- this is obviously way better!
  4. Umm… you’re not going to believe this, but it really did help my cramps! I still get them and it sucks, but they’re so much less. I haven’t even gotten out the heating pad since I started using it. It has not helped with the urge to stuff my face with chocolate and curl in a ball and cry.
  5. It doesn’t hurt to take it out, and it doesn’t hurt to wear it. Tampons did hurt. Pads are so uncomfortable that they’re not even worth mentioning.
  6. I won’t lie, taking it out is messy and can be a nightmare in a public restroom. I figured out that if i fill up one of these bottles with water before going into the stall, I can use it to rinse the cup and my fingers.
  7. I’m not throwing all that stuff away every month. I hate creating garbage. It’s also a bonus that there isn’t all sorts of gross stuff in the bathroom trash for the dogs to get into.
  8. No chemicals. Organic cotton tampons and pads are expensive, and don’t even work as well as traditional ones. I have to pick effective or safe. Really? Those are terrible options. The cup does both.

Overall, I’m so glad I switched. I think it’s some sort of conspiracy that cups aren’t more widely known, because it seems like such a better option. I’ve been using it for a little over a year now, and it’s been so much better. I got an IUD a few months after switching, and they told me I couldn’t use a cup with it. I didn’t believe them, did research, and have been using the cup anyway with no problems. However, I like it enough that I considered not getting the IUD to keep using it. That’s real love, right there!

I know this is a weird thing to write about, but I want every woman to know about this! I can’t really explain how much better it has made my period, I know that I just sound like a crazy person. I think you just need to try it for yourself. Since I’ve already gotten crazy personal, feel free to ask me anything below! Anyone else doing their period the hippie way? ๐Ÿ™‚

Jillian

Five Guilty Pleasures That Cheer Me Up

bear nailsSometimes life is exhausting, and this has just been one of those weeks. It’s time to put some effort into becoming myself again; instead of a crazy, stressed out version of myself. Here’s what I want to do this weekend:

1. I adore this manicure by polishpedia.com. Probably because I’m such a girly girl and love pink and bears. I’m not going to apologize. I will say, I’ve done it before, and pink is actually not a great color. If you’re not a super genius artist, the bear will end up looking like a pig. Also, I didn’t actually watch her video, so maybe that’s part of the problem. But I think I’m going to do it with white and gray.

2. A good work out on my rower while I watch Scandal. I still haven’t seen it!! No one can ruin it for me! Please?! This will give me about 50 minutes of cardio, which should definitely give me happy vibes.

3. A long walk in the park with the Shibas.

4. Undoubtedly, an afternoon nap. I just can’t even tell you how much I want this.

5. This is probably not a guilty pleasure, but I’m going to eat a salad and a green smoothie. I need veggies and vitamins, and I know they will perk me up.

Any other awesome ideas? Tomorrow I get to hang out with my darling M โค , and girl time is the ultimate pick me up!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Company Dinner

getting crazyThis is the kind of night I had last night. It was our company party, and we all drank and ate too much. However, I did stay strong and only had one piece of bread, and only half of my dinner. I also left way earlier than I normally do- which meant far less binge drinking (ummm I still had four drinks. Not trying to pretend I’m some sort of not drinking saint here).

By some miracle, I am down almost three pounds from last week (6.8 pounds total since January). We shall see if this carries over to next week or is just a miracle, but I haven’t been drinking this week until last night. I also have been trying to cut out the snack I have after work. I decided that they are killing my progress.

I had my last personal training session, and I had decided that instead of buying more personal training, I would use up my fitness class passes first. As I type this, I think I’m changing my mind. We JUST talked about how I need personal training. I don’t want to lose momentum. I’m being silly and need to buy it ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s like I just don’t listen!

How is everyone else’s food and exercise going this week? I also had a crazy scare with a friend- she got a pretty bad injury from yoga. I’m now afraid of yoga, and I think I’m going to take that off My 35 Project and change it to something else!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Personal Trainingย 

IMG_9073The only time I’ve truly successfully lost weight and kept it off for any amount of time was when I worked with a personal trainer. I know this, and even so I have a hard time getting a personal trainer.

A view inside my head: “it’s so expensive! There is absolutely no reason I can’t do this myself. I do not need to spend this much money on something that I can do myself. Plus, I’m embarrassed to admit to a stranger that I’m fat.” Et cetera, et cetera.

Now, is this positive self talk? Or even true? NO. I have no idea why I talk to myself this way, and I’m not allowed to anymore- I’m supposed to be positive. This means that I have to start by admitting I won’t do it myself. I didn’t get this way because I could do it myself. I need help. The money is real, but I think it makes sense to spend it on that instead of clothes and eating out. As for admitting that I’m overweight and need help- that isn’t easy for me either, but, umm… People have eyes. I don’t think any of this is actually a secret.

I’ve posted before that I bought a three pack of personal training sessions. I’ve used two of them, and the last one is this Saturday. Here is where I’m deciding that I need to buy more. It’s forcing me to work out once a week, and makes me want to do more in between so I look like I’m trying when I see the trainer.

She pushes me to do more than I ever would on my own, and I’m sore all the time. I like being sore, because it reminds me to make better choices. Work out more, eat less garbage, do some yoga to stretch it out ๐Ÿ™‚

Does anyone else do personal training? Or have a way I can get my butt to the gym and not pay a personal trainer? I think maybe I’ll look around and see if I can get a better deal somewhere else.

If anyone is keeping track, my weigh in this week is still pretty stable, but down a bit from last week. I am down 4.8 pounds since January. I am not going to say anything negative about that, even though I want to!!

Jillian

Weigh In Wednesday- Sun Bear Edition

sun bearMy weight is still stable this week.

I went to the zoo over the weekend, and I saw this Sun Bear. Poor Sun Bear! He had too many cocktails last night, or maybe just didn’t stick to his diet very well. ๐Ÿ™‚ He is obviously my spirit animal, so I had to take a ton of pictures. I know exactly how he feels.

Sometimes I just want to give up on myself. EVERY DAY I continue to indulge in something that I meant not to.

However, unlike the bear, I have freedom. I can make my own choices, go where I want, do what I want. I want to start viewing my health like I view my budget. I love having a budget for my money, because it allows me to see exactly where I have room to splurge. I have $50 extra dollars, I can choose where to put it and that gives me freedom.

So… I’m proposing that I (we? who’s on board) use that freedom with my lifestyle change. If I mess up in one way, I give up and do everything wrong. THAT’S TERRIBLE! If I did that with my budget, I would probably be homeless or in jail. If I want to not work out, I can’t have a drink. If I want a drink, I can’t chase it with chocolate. See what I mean? I know what this is- it is moderation. The very thing that people have been preaching at me my whole life, and I haven’t found. Now is the time.

Does anyone have any help for me? I think Nike’s slogan is all I really need here ๐Ÿ™‚

Jillian